How I Got Lost.

Pink Bras….. Always There For Support.

Posted in Friends, Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on September 8, 2009

Bra & Shit

I love Wanqin. I do. I really do.
& I can say it all day long.

Bloody hell, she’s been there for me through so much shit. No pun intended.

See, I guess she’s like one of the very few people I actually like to text. I actually like to talk to. I’ve told her more than anyone. 4 years and counting.

Bra, you’re amazing, although you’re a pervert who love old wrinkly men and is always constipated.

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Superficiality.

Posted in Photographs, Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on August 21, 2009

Andy Warhol And Edie Sedgwick, Posters

“No one cares about character anymore. Now, it’s all about race, religion and how you look.
Such a kind world we live in.”

-Satish Vijay

\Caring Is Creepy/

Posted in Photographs, Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on August 18, 2009

Lady Gaga, Glatsonbury 2009

“That’s life. It’s nothing else, it’s life. It’s real, and sometimes it fucking hurts, but it’s sort of all we have.”
-Garden State

Get On With It.

Posted in Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on August 18, 2009

I’m not good at the whole “keep in touch” thing. I try for the first few weeks, but then I just stop. It’s like something in my head just tells me to stop. I get busy. When I get busy, I forget about everything and everyone else. I’m in my own little world. I talk to people I see. If I don’t see them, I don’t talk to them. Then I get all high and say stupid random shit. It makes for a good stress reliever and to feel relieve more stress, I listen to a bunch of mellow music. I don’t go on Facebook or I don’t Twitter much, cause if I do, that means I’ll be bound to read people’s messages to me, which means that I have to reply. So I try to stay clear of that. Then when everything’s over, like the exams and stuff, I get on all these applications and start sending out a bunch of apologies to people that I haven’t replied or talked to. This whole thing repeats itself. I can’t help it. I’m just like that. I’ve grown accustomed to it. I should stop feeling guilty. It’s my life. I choose the things I want to do, and I choose to talk to less people when I get busy. So that’s that. I’m learning to get on with life, I’m learning how to stop feeling guilty for how my choices affect others.

I Can Do Bad All By Myself.

Posted in Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on August 18, 2009

Procrastinator. Sarcastic. Impatient. Sensitive. Emotional. Short. Geek. Fat.

It sucks when you get all these stupid traits. It’s stupid how you look down on yourself so much that you get so self conscious when people walk past you. It’s sad how you constantly think about the future, and instead of imagining great things, you imagine  living alone in a total shit hole, going through life wondering if you’ll be able to afford the days to come. It’s pathetic how you look in the mirror and just get sick of looking at how ugly you look like.

Some people call it pessimism.
Why do I get pissed at people who call it that? Why do I see that sort of thinking as being a realist?
Why don’t I believe that I can be great? Why do I trust myself so little? & Why do I constantly question my abilities?

I wish I was like other people. I wish I actually believed that I could achieve something.
I laugh at people who say they pretend to be all right when everything’s not, because I think it’s all fake. I look at these people and I tell myself, “What the fuck are they complaining about? They have everything”. & I’m sorry for that. Someone told me that you should never say that. You never know what happens behind closed doors. You don’t know if they’re going through shit at home. You don’t know if they’re being beat. You don’t know what the hell they’re going through. So you don’t have the right to judge them and say that they’re just pretending to pretend to be alright. I know someone. Very funny. Very happy go lucky. Very carefree. But I found out they were going through hell at home. I never knew. See, these are the times when I look at myself and wonder why I’m complaining. I have a family who loves me. I have friends. Financially, I’m doing okay. What’s there to complain? Why do I keep ignoring the good things I have in life, and keep focusing on all the bad things that happen.

Now after I go say this, I’ll be okay for awhile. Then I’ll go through this whole cycle again. It’s annoying how you know something is wrong with you, but you can’t fix it. You try and try, but you can’t.

I want to get away from everyone. I want to meet new people. I want to get out of this town. I want to be like those kinds of people who live by the day, not caring what tomorrow brings. Why can’t I be like that? Why did god create me to worry so much. I over think things. Yet another bad trait.

Argh. This post is going nowhere. I just needed somewhere to rant.

FIGHTclub.

Posted in Photographs, Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on August 17, 2009

Paolo Nutini

“If I can’t be beautiful, I want to be invisible”
-Chuck Palahniuk

Flakes.

Posted in Photographs, Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on August 16, 2009

Trust Me

Sorry to everyone. I’ve  been M.I.A on like a fuckload of people. After the exams yeah? Promise.

“We were the talented kids who were supposed to be great, but we grew up.”
– How I Got Lost

Love For A Child.

Posted in Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on July 18, 2009

“Go be that starving Artist you’re afraid to be. Open up that journal and get poetic finally. Volunteer. Suck it up and travel. You were not born here to work and pay taxes. You were put here to be part of a vast organism to explore and create. Stop putting it off. The world has much more to offer than what’s on 15 televisions at TGI Fridays. Take pictures. Scare people. Shake up the scene. Be the change you want to see in the world. You’ll thank yourself for it.

-Jason Mraz


Here Comes Tsh.

Posted in Education, Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on July 17, 2009

I can’t take the pessism. I just can’t. I don’t want to surround myself with people that have too much baggage. I don’t want stupid drama in my life. Yes, it made life a lot more interesting in Secondary School, what with all the backstabbing, jealousy and rumors, but I’m done. Last Friday changed my life. Literally. She said we could do it, and I believed her. She said we don’t have to worry about a thing. All we need to do is focus, and she’d take care of everything else. I believed her. I’m changing. I’m going to work my fucking ass off. Yes I am.

Everyone’s Scared.

Posted in Random Thoughts by Satish Vijay on July 17, 2009

It’s annoying how scared I am.
Scared to be myself.
Scared to learn.
Scared to be alone.
Scared to dare.
Scared of what people might think of me.
Actually, it’s not annoying.
It’s just sad.